The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(31st Edition) : Dream

I've Got a Tight Grip On Reality, But I can't;
Let Go Of What's In Front Of Me Here.
I Know You're Leaving In The Morning, When you wake up;
Leave Me With Some Kind Of Proof It's Not A Dream.

A Treasure, is only a treasure, because you see it as a treasure.
A Wish, is only a wish, unless you make it come true.
A Dream, is only a dream, unless you strive for it.
A Nightmare, is only a nightmare, because you let it consume you.

I have nightmares alot.
Almost every single night.
The one night i don't have a nightmare, i get about an hours sleep.
These nightmares leave me crippled, my legs brought up to my chest, my arms hugging them, sort of in the foetal position.
sometimes I cry,
sometimes I scream,
sometimes I gasp for air.
These nightmares scare me.

But I know theres always something good that comes out of something bad.
I have good dreams also.
They're usually funny.
There was this one time quite recently that I dreamt I was riding a cow and at the end he said, in a deep voice, "you shook my milk and my chocolate together so now you can have a chocolate milkshake."
I was abit excited.

But then again, I wake up.
Lately I've been feeling like I've been living a nightmare
With all the crap sticks that's been going on.

I cry myself to sleep most nights.
but I still cant bring myself to blame anyone.
Because I know it's me
I know i let reality get to me.
I know I let my nightmares get to me.
I know I let them get to me.
Them referring to the people that are so petty, they want to cause me harm to make themselves feel tough, and superior.
I know I let everything that anyone says get to me, because I take it to heart.
I don't know what I can do.
I feel as if my nightmares are consuming me, and they turn into the real thing.
Everything I dream about comes true.

There is a saviour in all this.
In the morning I wake up, and he leaves a reminder that it wasn't all a dream.
He gives me hope.
He gives me faith.
And in his faith i am restored.
At least until next time.