The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(33rd Edition) : Bad

Bad things do happen.
It's Reality.
It's Life.
For me, I feel as if my whole life is just bad things.
Some people may say that im just having a bad day, a bad week, a bad month.. but this has been going on a while.
I can fix it.

Friday, July 23, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(32nd Edition) : Strength

The other day we had "Health Day" at school.
We were talked to by many inspiring and encouraging people.
But it was pretty much a bludge day.
All year 10's were split into 3 groups- Pink
. - Green
. - Blue
I was in green and First up we had a speaker called Anj who was 26.
At the age of 16 she was beaten repeatedly by her boyfriend of 2 years who was 20.
He smashed her head over 6 times on a steel bench,
While she was unconscious, He jumped on her chest and choked her,
then stood up and smashed his foot into her face and broke her jaw in two.
She was 16.
The back of her head, her skull, was "like jelly" the doctor said.
He had put his foot so hard onto her face, that his shoe print was etched into her face for months.
He walked away from her and said to people who ran to her aid after a boy on a bicycle saw her and went and got help "Its your f***ing problem now"
He was supposed to love her.
He got 7 years in jail.
She has a life sentence of being mentally and physically disabled, and will be in another life of pain for the rest of her years because of what he's done.
He doesnt even regret it.
He now lives in Melbourne and doesn't give two shits about what he's done.
He was Supposed to love her.
How can the law system call that justice.
The victim gets a life sentence and he gets a new start?
More on this later, gotta go buy some clothes

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(31st Edition) : Dream

I've Got a Tight Grip On Reality, But I can't;
Let Go Of What's In Front Of Me Here.
I Know You're Leaving In The Morning, When you wake up;
Leave Me With Some Kind Of Proof It's Not A Dream.


A Treasure, is only a treasure, because you see it as a treasure.
A Wish, is only a wish, unless you make it come true.
A Dream, is only a dream, unless you strive for it.
A Nightmare, is only a nightmare, because you let it consume you.

I have nightmares alot.
Almost every single night.
The one night i don't have a nightmare, i get about an hours sleep.
These nightmares leave me crippled, my legs brought up to my chest, my arms hugging them, sort of in the foetal position.
sometimes I cry,
sometimes I scream,
sometimes I gasp for air.
These nightmares scare me.

But I know theres always something good that comes out of something bad.
I have good dreams also.
They're usually funny.
There was this one time quite recently that I dreamt I was riding a cow and at the end he said, in a deep voice, "you shook my milk and my chocolate together so now you can have a chocolate milkshake."
I was abit excited.

But then again, I wake up.
Lately I've been feeling like I've been living a nightmare
With all the crap sticks that's been going on.

I cry myself to sleep most nights.
but I still cant bring myself to blame anyone.
Because I know it's me
I know i let reality get to me.
I know I let my nightmares get to me.
I know I let them get to me.
Them referring to the people that are so petty, they want to cause me harm to make themselves feel tough, and superior.
I know I let everything that anyone says get to me, because I take it to heart.
I don't know what I can do.
I feel as if my nightmares are consuming me, and they turn into the real thing.
Everything I dream about comes true.

There is a saviour in all this.
In the morning I wake up, and he leaves a reminder that it wasn't all a dream.
He gives me hope.
He gives me faith.
And in his faith i am restored.
At least until next time.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur (30th Edition) : you.


You are a dream come true.
You shine like the light from the sun.
You make all things new.

The day i met you i was lost,
I'd do antyhing no matter the cost.
I'd Sail across the seas,
I'd swim a thousand oceans,
You are the air i breathe.
You are my emotion.


You warm me up on a winters day
when the sky is drab and blue
It's sucks out all my feelings
but it is you who's fresh and new


In spring You make the flowers bloom
You make the blue birds sing
their beautiful melody begins to boom
when winter turns to spring


You are the light that shines
so brightly in the summertime
You are the beach
you are the sand
you are the twinkle in my eye
When night finally lays day to rest
i still know you are mine.


When the leaves turn to say goodmorning to the ground
and the butterflys to their coccoons
It is you that makes me whole
It is you that makes me new

you bring light to my darkness
and good to my bad
you bring flowers to the moonlight
you bring me up when i am sad.

when i break,
You are my summer escape
you are the wind beneath my wings
You are my everything.

Monday, July 19, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(29th Edition) : Me

This is me when i wake up in the mornings.

Like it? no? Solution: eff off because i actually dont care.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(28th Edition) : Jessie-anne

Teneill Jessie-anne Fox is ashamed of her Middle name.
Its unique, yes, but theres nothing actually wrong with it.
There's a boy in my photography class (total dropkick)who i found out today his name is bodrick..
Okay whoever names him.. probably should get off the crack.

All im saying is that you shouldnt be ashamed of your name, or what you look like, or your accent.. but embrace it and make it uniquely your own. Coz one day, The thing people will remember is you, for who you really are.

I would like you to meet Teneill Jessie-anne Fox (a.k.a. Tenny), who is also my son and how absolutely unique she is.
Tenny, youre beautiful and amazing and incredible and everything ive ever wanted ever in a son.
Im so proud to call you my friend.
















Saturday, July 17, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(27th Edition) : Miracles

Insane Clown Posse Miracles

If magic is all we've ever know
Then it's easy to miss what really goes on
But I've seen miracles in every way
And I see miracles everyday
Oceans spanning beyond my sight
And a million stars way above em at night
We don't have to be high to look in the sky
And know that's a miracle opened wide
Look at the mountains, trees, the seven seas
And everything chilling underwater, please
Hot lava, snow, rain and fog
Long neck giraffes, and pet cats and dogs
And I've seen eighty-five thousand people
All in one room, together as equals
Pure magic is the birth of my kids
I've seen shit that'll shock your eyelids
The sun and the moon, and even Mars
The Milky Way and fucking shooting stars
UFOs, a river flows
Plant a little seed and nature grows
Niagara falls and the pyramids
Everything you believed in as kids
Fucking rainbows after it rains
there's enough miracles here to blow your brains
I fed a fish to a pelican at Frisco bay
It tried to eat my cell phone, he ran away
And music is magic, pure and clean
You can feel it and hear it but it can't be seen

Music is all magic
(Are you a believer in miracles)
You can't even hold it
(Do you notice and recognize miracles)
it's just there in the air
(Are you a believer in miracles)
Pure motherfucking magic Right?
This shit'll blow your fucking mind
(Do you notice and recognize miracles)

Music is a lot like love, it's all a feeling
And it fills the room, from the floor to the ceiling
I see miracles all around me
Stop and look around, it's all astounding
Water, fire, air and dirt
Fucking magnets, how do they work?
And I don't wanna talk to a scientist
Y'all motherfuckers lying, and getting me pissed
Solar eclipse, and vicious weather
Fifteen thousand Juggalos together
And I love my mom for giving me this
Time on this planet, taking nothing for granted
I seen a caterpillar turn into a butterfly
Miracles ain't nothing to lie
Shaggy's little boys look just like Shaggy
And my little boy looks just like daddy
Miracles each and every where you look
And nobody has to stay where they put
This world is yours for you to explore
there's nothing but miracles beyond your door
The Dark Carnival is your invitation
To witness that without explanation
Take a look at this fine creation
And enjoy it better with appreciation
Crows, ghosts, the midnight coast
The wonders of the world, mysteries the most
Just open your mind, and it ain't no way
To ignore the miracles of every day

(Are you a believer in miracles)
Magic everywhere in this bitch
(Do you notice and recognize miracles)
it's all around you, you don't even know it
(Are you a believer in miracles) Shit's crazy
(Do you notice and recognize miracles,
So many miracles, the magic miracles)

Are you a believer in miracles
Do you have time for the miracles
Do you notice and recognize miracles
So many miracles, the magic miracles
Are you a believer in miracles
Do you have time for the miracles
Do you notice and recognize miracles
So many miracles, the magic miracles
Are you a believer in miracles
Do you have time for the miracles
Do you notice and recognize miracles
So many miracles, the magic miracles
Are you a believer in miracles
Do you have time for the miracles
Do you notice and recognize miracles
So many miracles, the magic miracles


Miracles are all around us every day. Just believe and open your eyes.
You'll see them.

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(26th Edition) : bears


if you go out in the woods today you're sure of a big surprise.
If you go out in the woods today you better bring a disguise.
For every bear there ever there was,
Will gather there for certain because
Today's the day the teddy bears have their picnic.

My mum used to sing me this song every night before bed. Because I'm clare bear Haha.
And I just heard it then while watching open season with my dog..

I miss being a kid.
Being carefree.
Imagining I was anything I wanted to Be..
A super hero. A rock star. A garden gnome on a few occasions.
I miss being careless.
The only time I cried was when I hurt myself.
I miss being completely oblivious.
I miss being ignorant.
I miss not knowing what the word slut or whore or any other derogatory name meant.
I miss being clare bear.

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(25th Edition) : questions

The question is not who I am, but who do I turn out to Be..
who am I to you?
Who am I to myself?
how many lives did I touch?
Have I touched yours?
Have I impacted you in any way?
What am I going to become?
What am I becoming?

Who????
What????
Where????
When????
Why????
This may seem selfish to some. But you need to satisfy yourself before you can satisfy or make anyone else happy.
Answer these questions.. Who are you really? What are you really? Where are you now? When are you going to become everything you want?
Why why. Just question everything..
Because then you'll get the answers you really want and need.

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files OF a Dinosaur(24th Edition) : Why Do We Even Bother?

We always End up Back here.
So why Do We Even Bother?

We're always crying
We're alwasy caring
we're always searching
we're always lying
We're alwasy loving
We're always cheating
We're always killing something
We're always blessed
We're always emotional
We're alwasy selfless
We're always doing something wrong
We're always hurting
We're alwasy selfish
We're always hurting someone else
So. Why. Do. We. Bother?

Because we love.
because we care.
Because every single moment with them is a blessing.
Because you cant stand not being with them.
Because you cant stand to see them hurt.
Even if it means you hurt yourself.
Because we're selfish.
Because soemtimes we're selfless.
Because we want them.
Because we need them.

Christopher Theofilaktos I need you right now.
Please stop making this hurt.

This deep dark pain inside my heart.
I couldnt imagine it would hurt this much
The pain is crippling
Worse then death
Please help me fix this mess
I cant stand being away from you
Because of this feeling in my soul
You are what runs through my veins
You are what makes me whole.
So please please help me
Together we can fix this
I need you with me now
Please oh god please
I need you near me
By myself i dont know how

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(23rd Edition) : Differences


"Some people say opposites attract, then you drive them crazy for the rest of your life"

Differences.

Opposites.

Dissimilar.

Deviation.


I had a really nice talk today with a guy called Tom. Before today I've thought of him to be arrogant, competitive and rude.
Today I realised he just has different insecurities to me. He's scared of being outdone in stuff he's really good at and loves and has a passion for, which in his instance is running;
This means that when someone comes along who is just as good as him, or even possibly better, he shoots them down and trys to be "bigger" than them.. It just makes him out to be petty.

Me, I'm more scared of what I look like to other people and how I come across to them.
And I'm scared people wont like me.
There's always going to be people who are different or even the complete opposite to you. You're just got to forget about all the first impressions you've had of them and try to get to know them,
Because they actually might turn out to be a really nice guy..
just Like Tom proved This afternoon.

The Secret Adventure Files Of a Dinosaur(22nd Edition) : Good

This post, is to let you enjoy all the finer things in life.
Stuff you may have maybe probably might have forgotten about.
Getting caught up in school, or in dramas, or work, or fall outs.
Sometimes you forget all the stuff that made you happy, because all of the hateful and hurtful things in your life, all the lies, and insecurities you have, consume you.
So here are some things I Enjoy.
Somethings that make Me happy.

RAINBOWS!

This is a Rainbow over Hawaii. Some day i wish to travel to and soak up all the beautiful Rays of sunlight that hits the crystal blue waters from the cloudless blue skies.
Some day where i also plan on Hula Dancing On the Beach.


I love Rainbow Butterflies.
I love dancing.

I love motorbikes.
I love skating.
I love Skate Parks.
I love Music.
I love Paris.
I love Postcards.
I love Getting mail.
I love everything about Spain. The colours, the feel, the flavour, The Strength.
I love Australia.
I love the great barrier reef.
I love old people in their little scooters.
I love kissing.
I love cute but simple dresses that will make you feel like a princess.
I love sunsets.
I love Sunflowers, because theyre always looking for the sun.
I love all flowers but especially frangipanis.
I love hula hooping.
I love Chimpanzees.
I love Gorillas.
I love Orangutans.
I love Mustangs. The Horse,
And the car.
I love holdens. They show our connection with the ground.. LOLJOKES.I do like holdens though.
I love palmtrees.
I love Polaroids.
I love Starfish.
I love my brother.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love Christopher.