The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(19th Edition) : Eclipse

An Eclipse is a beautiful thing.
Something that i one day wish to see.
Something that still amazes me every single time i see one on the news.
It amazes me that we have a whole world full of beautiful things, that alot of people will never be able to see.
I am not an unlucky person, I am the luckiest person alive, to have so much shit delt to me in my very short life, and yet it still makes me stronger.
Some people aren't that fortunate.
They are "well off", They have two parents still together, they have a good life, a good family.
And they take it all for granted.
My parents split up when i was 4.
I lived with my brother and my mum for almost my whole life, until two years ago.
My family spent a few years living on literally, bread, water and potatoes.
Because they were inexpensive.
I was beaten repeatedly.
Slapped.
Kicked.
Punched.
And when my brother's strength grew along with his hatred of the world for dumping this on us.. He contributed too.
My mother would hit me anywhere she could with the back of my brush.. and she'd get so caught up with the moment that all her anger for my father, and my brother, and the fact we had no house, no money, her job was extremely tiresome, she would make up new words just so she could hit me more.
This happened repeatedly.
This post wasn't written to whinge.
This post was written to say:
All things are beautiful in the world.
If you have the strength to see it.
You must make yourself happy before you can make anyone else happy.
there are times to be selfish, and times to be selfless.
Im going to get out of this small country town and see all the beautiful things,
all the beautiful people.
All the beautiful places.
The beautiful blue skies of paris.
The beautiful cottages of Italy.
The beautiful people and feel of my home country, Spain.
The beautiful you.
The beautiful me, is going to shine.

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(18th Edition) : Fossils

Fossils are amazing things. we use them for fuel, and to teach us about the past to get ready for the future and to pass on the knowledge that us humans love so much to our future generations so they too can learn.
A fossil is: A remnant or trace of an organism of a past geologic age, such as a skeleton or leaf imprint, embedded and preserved in the earth's crust.
Christopher, his brother Anthony, his mum Rita and I all went to the Melbourne Museum on the holidays. Here are a few of the photos I took.


Behind the cages of life and death, Beats a dead heart deep within the ground.



In your Footsteph we Follow



So That you May Lead us Towards the Light



So That our Children


May Evolve into Somehting Greater and More Powerful.


If Only we Saw things


From a few different angles


Until they are Clear and Make Sense.


it doesnt matter what i look like,


because i know I've always got my friends backing me up.


i may look scary but on the inside im the one thats scared.


and sometimes ill be a prick, but ill always love you.

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(17th Edition) : Scared

I like to write songs when im sad.
I write alot in the past but i havent really written much lately, and if youlll let me, id like to share some with you.

but crapsticks i just deleted it! so ill just make it up as i go along

i think it went:
But im a littel bit terrified, of what ive been hiding, and im a little bit mortified, of what left inside, Each and every day a little bit flies away with the butterflies in my stomach and it aches.
When the sun goes down and the night eats up the light,
I wait for you, to show me the light.
To illumite my way, until the dark turns into day
and I'm not scared anymore.

I'm scared of a few things.
.The dark.The dark for obvious boogey monster reasons.


.gravel.Gravel because when I was younger, i got a nail through my knee cap which forced it to shatter and it sounds like gravel.


.time.
And time because I'm scared I won't have enough of it to do everything I want to do.


I'm going to be a Vet.
I'm going to marry Christopher.
I'm going to become everything I'm worth.
And you will do everything you want to aswell.

The Secret Files Of A Dinosaur(16th Edition) : Perfection

I don't see how a stone can be carved and manipulated and turned into something pretty.
An ugly grey stone turned into something amazing.
Similar to a block of wood or a droplet of water in a sandstone cave turned into stalactites and stalagmites..
Or even a person before a makeover. But why cant we let things be the way they are? Why do we always strive for perfection? A rock is a rock, A stone is a stone.
It should be the way something makes us feel that makes the thing itself perfect, not the way it looks or feels.
Perfection is an illusion.
One you can chose to find the inside or the outside perfection.
I just saw a picture of what someone thinks perfection is and around the picture there are writings:
"not eating light makes your clothes too tight"
"The Thinner the Winner"
"Thin is always in. and those who say otherwise, are fat, aren't they?"
"i don't care if it hurts, i want to have control, i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul"
The picture is of a young girl in her underwear facing backwards so you can see her back and her bum and the back of her head..
She thinks being thin is perfect, and perfection is happiness.
I don't believe that.


The perfect sunset isn't just the picture. it is the sunset I'm going to get married in front of to Christopher.

The perfect man for me isn't what he looks like, or how smart he is, but his kindness and the way he makes me feel. not the way he makes anyone else feel, or how they react towards him.

I don't have the perfect house, or the perfect job, or the perfect family but i am happy.
I'm not perfect in any way shape or form but i hope you can forgive me for that.

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(15th Edition) : New

New.
having just (or relatively recently) come into being or been made or acquired or discovered.
.Fresh
.Raw
.Different
.Gratuitously new
.Unfamiliar
A new possession, a New emotion, a New friend, a new experience.
A new lease on life.
A new reason for living.
A new reason to die.
We all feel and think and see something new every day. Whether its original and uniquely our own or its someone else's idea that we have claimed for ourselves.
We all have new experiences every day and following them, are the new emotions that come.
Tonight I'm having a new experience.
Tonight I'm going on my first proper date with Chris.
Its unfamiliar, and Fresh but oddly exciting and thrilling.
I'm enthusiastic and Optimistic.
I do love him and I know he makes everything amazing.
So instead of sitting in your boring shells and lives of work, school, bed and eat with no play and thrilling adventures waiting just around the corner, don't let them wait go out and find them then ride them until you're finished.
Wish me Luck :)

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(14th Edition) : Sorry

Sorry.
can mean many different things in many different contexts.
it can be sarcatsic, narcisistic, sad, joking, meaningless, meaningful, cute, painful or sincere.
it can also be said because of many different things.
a traumatic experience, a mistake, a conflict that's been resolved etc
Its a word a little like the phrase 'I love you'
Said far too much, but yet not enough.
i think, whats the point in saying sorry if you dont mean it.
if its not going to be sarcastic, or taken in a joking way, then it is not sincere and its just the same as lying.
you can although say sorry for miniscule things inside the big picture.
I'm going to start saying sorry.
I'm sorry Christopher, for beating you up all the time (joking but sincere)
I'm sorry Mum, for many things such as not believing in santa past the age of 10, to hurting you emotionally and physically that day long ago.
I'm sorry Andrew, for being wary of you at frist, and that abusive text I sent you almost 2 years ago now for hurting my mum.
I'm sorry Mark, for all the sisterly crap you've had to deal with all the time.
I'm sorry Keely, for that time I didnt believe you, and that time I called you a bitch, and that I let many of our promises down, because I'm too afraid of hurting you or me again after August '08.
I'm sorry for all my other school peers that I hurt after August '08. I let you kids down.
I'm sorry to all the teachers I gave absolute hell.
I'm sorry Mrs. Swain for hugging you.
I'm sorry dad, for being such a burden on you.
I'm sorry to the rest of my family for not keeping contact after the divorce.

sometime soon everyone should say sorry.
as long as its honest and true.
Yours sincerly
c.

The Secret Adventure Files Of A Dinosaur(13th Edition) : Addiction